There are two ways to slide easily through life: to believe everything or to doubt everything; both ways save us from thinking.The morning today wasn't different from any other. Woke up at 5:30 am, looked at the faint light streaming in through the thick curtain and decided that it was too early to get up. But these few days, a strange kind of a tension has been shackling my thoughts. I wake up, sweating, trying to understand whether it is the same me who wanted to ride a Bullet to Ladakh, a few months back.
Sweating, I cried myself, without tears, to sleep again.
The window of my new flat really rocks. The door of my small room opens into a narrow balcony. Thankfully, this time, the view is not blocked by any stupid building. There are trees all around. Squirrels, a precious sight in Delhi, usually use them as ladders to check on my activities during the day. I don't mind.
I lie for hours on my makeshift bed, looking at the treetops, fascinated by the sun on the rich green leaves. With the onset of winter the breeze has adopted a comfortable icy flavour. The chill brushes against your skin ever so lightly. Ever so mysteriously.
The state of mind is pure and uncomplicated, contrary to what people believe. Feelings and emotions are chemical reactions in the brain. Understanding the thoughtprocess of an individual is very important to fathom what the future might turn out to be. Sometimes it is so blatant that one's own mind seems like a chemical lab. Only that one doesn't take to chemistry that easily.
Relations with people are like equations. The other day I was reading about unconditional love. It feels nice to let the imagination run wild sometimes. You have to be really good in 'life-maths' to be able to solve such equations. I am supposedly good, but kind of crazy, who tries out different permutations. So, my potential as an equation cruncher, is a bit doubtful.
Honestly speaking, you got to adapt. And adapt fast. Otherwise you die a slow painful death.
I don't know what to see. What to foresee as well. People have been by my side. I have heard them out like I usually do. My mind is restless and my soul longs for that blue horizon. But I guess, I have to adapt, pretty fast.
The window of my new flat really rocks. The door of my small room opens into a narrow balcony. Thankfully, this time, the view is not blocked by any stupid building. There are trees all around. Squirrels, a precious sight in Delhi, usually use them as ladders to check on my activities during the day. I don't mind.
I lie for hours on my makeshift bed, looking at the treetops, fascinated by the sun on the rich green leaves. With the onset of winter the breeze has adopted a comfortable icy flavour. The chill brushes against your skin ever so lightly. Ever so mysteriously.
The state of mind is pure and uncomplicated, contrary to what people believe. Feelings and emotions are chemical reactions in the brain. Understanding the thoughtprocess of an individual is very important to fathom what the future might turn out to be. Sometimes it is so blatant that one's own mind seems like a chemical lab. Only that one doesn't take to chemistry that easily.
Relations with people are like equations. The other day I was reading about unconditional love. It feels nice to let the imagination run wild sometimes. You have to be really good in 'life-maths' to be able to solve such equations. I am supposedly good, but kind of crazy, who tries out different permutations. So, my potential as an equation cruncher, is a bit doubtful.
Honestly speaking, you got to adapt. And adapt fast. Otherwise you die a slow painful death.
I don't know what to see. What to foresee as well. People have been by my side. I have heard them out like I usually do. My mind is restless and my soul longs for that blue horizon. But I guess, I have to adapt, pretty fast.
3 comments:
Hey...
What a beautiful description... You write really well.
Me
Have you heard of Darwin, he promulgated the theory of 'Natural Selection'- Survival of the fittest. And the fittest adapt to survive...I don't know.
Chemistry is there to prove that chemical reactions happen....be a catalyst....
Post a Comment