Friday, June 02, 2006

Good Morning.

My nails have grown. My head feels heavy. Ghosts of burnt cigarettes haunt my windpipe. My lips are dry.

I never liked vodka. but I like getting drunk. After two large pegs the taste doesn't matter.

People say I have responsibilities. I agree.

People say I am weird. I agree.

People say I shouldn't smoke. I agree.

I say motivation is important. People don't agree.

long back, in a dust storm I lost my sight. Now it really doesn't matter.

Smiles. Fucked up smiles, are so beautiful.

But the heart doesn't feel anymore.

The well of guilt is dark and deep. The black water shimmers with silver diamonds.

I want a shot in my head. A 12 bore cartridge will feel good. It's better than acid rain on my skin.

One more in my heart.

The pain will end. Abruptly. Like the flutter left behind, by those fucked up smiles.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Only self motivation is important... not any other. And yes, you ARE weird and should not smoke so much.
You should blog more often... it gets you in touch with your "brighter" side.
ND

Anonymous said...

Only self-motivation is important... not any other. You are weird... even I agree. You shouldn't smoke so much... I agree on that too.

You should blog more often... it keeps you in touch with your "brighter" side. He he.

ND

D said...

"I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. So I find this law at work: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me."

This is what I will quote when I am unbiased.

Anonymous said...

Its like smoke in a chimney

Anonymous said...

Why does your mind play the same tune.Let it play a different Raga ...John.

Anonymous said...

dont u think ur being kinda pessimist..i mean... is this really ur view of life..or is it just wat u feel ppl should think u are..let the motivation be someone u luv the most, care for the most, or who loves u the most and cares for u d most. motivation is just an excuse for u to get thru this. and u already wanna get shot, in these hand-breadth of yrs? you'll just be making a spectacle of urself in that case. live life, making sure that everyone else under the sun, lives life too.